Meds?? Awww F....

So I was taking 10 mg of zyprexa to get me stabilized, and it threw my bp from being depressed to being a tornado of energy; plus I was still dealing with my sleep issues and ontop of all of that, I started listing again.  So I called the doctor and he told me to split 20 mg, 1 in the AM, 1 in he PM and add 50 mg of benadryl before bed to sleep....seems to be working.  I'm rested and bored...*laughs*.
This video made me smile and of course the tune is catchy.....thought I would share:

Oh please Mr Sandman.....

I have been having the worst time trying to sleep lately.  I lie down around 10 and by 11 I'm doing my "5 things" countdown...5 things I can hear, 5 things I can feel....this is supposed to bring me back to the present and normally it works.  Its not stinkin working...hasn't worked in the last 3-4 nights.  I finally crash around 2-3 AM, and I have to get up and have The Girl to school by 7:45.  Please anyone....send me some sleep energy, or something.  AURGH!!!!!

One foot infront of the other....stepping out...

About a year ago a change started within me that I was unaware of at the time.  I found myself distancing myself from people in my life that were walking a different path than the one I was beginning.  People with loving agendas began to move into my life, books on spirituality found their way into my hands, and I found some much needed quiet time.  Gentleness, honest love, truth, wisdom.....such foreign concepts to me....I had a hard time understanding, but I was finding faith again.  I discovered that my faith was not so much based on the God I was forced to worship as a child, but more on the itnterconnected web of the Universe.  Messages came to me through other peopl, through books, and music.  I began listening more and trusting my intuition.  I discovered that I have some healing that I need to face in order to continue, so I'm experiencing my Dark Days at this time and its not so easy to be true to myself, to be honest with my own spirit.  I am working daily on empowering myself as an individual, a woman, a child of the Universe.

The Awakening Sonny Carroll

 There comes a time in your life when you finally get it ... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out "ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on." And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new perspective. ..........This is your awakening.


I am a woman, a girl, a mother, a lover, a friend, a student, a teacher.....I am one with all that is. I am intelligent, loved, sane & insane. I am compassionate, passionate, caring, sympathetic and emphatic. I am filled with the desire to understand all that I possibly can....I want the knowledge...

My spirit is drawn to nature, to trees and the colors of the Universe. I believe in the sun, the moon, fairies and angels. I believe that children are mystical beings, and animals teach us how to love.

Spirit of Life, come unto me.
Sing in my heart all the stirrings of compassion.
Blow in the wind, rise in the sea;
Move in the hand, giving life the shape of justice.
Roots hold me close; wings set me free;
Spirit of Life, come to me, come to me.
-Carolyn McDade